The Film Has Been Over Exposed!!!!

I've always heard the saying ”You only get what you give” but what about ”You give more than you get” Why is that one not more famous?
Cause I know sure as hell I'm definately giving alot more than I'm getting and of course I don't mean physical things of course because I'll more of a time and affection you're of girl. Cause to me really there's only 2 types of girls the ones that need things and possessions and the ones that need time and affection. So if you follow the golden rule you in life and treat others as you want to be treated.... Then if you shower your significant other with love and affection shouldn't you expect that same thing in return?..... I'm just tired of giving so much and getting so little... I KNOW he loves me but I wish he would make me feel it more than just hearing his words...is out really tiopo much to ask for a never ending amount of affection... If you love someone shouldn't it be all the time... who said there's only appropriate times and places to appreciate each other.... I'm not saying full out disgust people with your crazy pda but.... uggh nevermind

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the New Year 2012

[Jan. 19th, 2012|12:48 am]

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oh my...
he's my boyfriend now
Has been since the second time we first met
I'm so in love with him
sucks to know that you know you love them more than they love you
<3

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(no subject)	[Nov. 16th, 2011\|06:19 pm]
I forgot how much it sucks to be the only one making all the effort... <3 nat
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(no subject)	[Oct. 24th, 2011\|04:03 am]
There's something scary about being head over heels in love, the absolute fear of putting your heart out there not knowing if they can love you back. At the same time theres something amazingly beautiful about putting your heart on the line and hoping and knowing that the other person absolutely is as crazy head over heels about you...nothing can beat that feeling of knowing that other person absolutely loves you too. this fear doesn't compare to what love can conquer. <3 nat
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Dreams	[Oct. 24th, 2011\|04:02 am]
Everything seems to be falling in place. It's scary really. I've dreamed of being with Mike since we first met and now I'm freaking it because my dreams might actually come true. He loves me. I've always known it but he didn't. He didn't want to give in to his own heart. It's been over a year since we reconnected. I fell back in love the night of our second first kiss. Well the flame was reignited.... And burning stronger every day. I'm moving back to el paso. I keep telling everyone it's for family & be near my good friends and such, but the complete honest truth is I'm moving back for him. For my shot at what truly is true love. I love Michael Montaño always have and will forever I will always fight for a love like ours ... Always. I'll never give up. <3 nat
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(no subject)	[Sep. 3rd, 2011\|06:07 pm]
Long Distance Relationships You know what sucks about this Know matter how beautiful words sound and can make you feel great it just doesn't maake you "feel the affection it's so dry and black and white Love is colorful there is just something so important in love to be together physically Like when talking to each other being able to look into each other eyes can be so important because you can see through your loves eyes and with your own eyes SEE the emotion the person is sharing with you through phone and internet not so much the same I try I do but There's just something about being able to feel your lovers touch that make you physically exieriences their love the way they can kiss your lips the way you feel your heartbeat race their embrace get tighter your breathing the same love is about all the sense the smell, the feel, the tatse, the sounds, the looks I need that I need it with you i need it with you here hurry I don't know how much longer i can't stand this love apart I need you here. now. with me always. please <3
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Catch up time	[May. 31st, 2011\|01:23 am]
Thursday: Ended up goin to the movies w/ Jenny, Stef, Shelley, & Kento. We watched Hangover 2 It was super funny! Stef smoked me out.... ugh finally I've been broke as a joke so I can't buy any pot :( She Loves me :) YAY Thank goodness!!! I needed it! Fell asleep on Myk lol oops!!! Friday: Went to Crystal's Garduation Had dinner with her Family mmmm I had a huge bowl of Pho :) Stopped by to see the Munchers! Went to bed early Saturday: Client at Dr. Stacey's 9:15am Packed Jenny's stuff Went to Pedro's w/ Cam, Jenny, GJ, & Kento for Sangria & Margaritas Crystal's house early to make the Chile con Queso - Partied :) Crashed out on Myk again OOOPS!!! Sunday: Watched Kung Fu Panda 2 w/ Richnerd, Kento, & Jenny Hung out at Kento's house Today: I didn't do a damn thing all day long!!! Never even left the apartment ... Except have some fun with Myk Via text ;) Posted some pics on fb but that was about as productive as I got lol It was nice but would have been better if he was here :( I miss him everyday all day I'll see you soon I hope :) At least I can see you in my dreams Goodnight <3 nat
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Yes I'm trying	[May. 26th, 2011\|07:03 pm]
Tuesday: Jenny took me to pho mmmm Hung out at kento's watched insidious & green hornet Tina took us to Verde tea & beard papa double mmm Late night bball game Good night :) Wednesday: Went to NHI graduation Worked @ Dr. Stacey - Heather Checked out the new location for Kb fitness Bonding bonding time @ Silhouette Today Met up with Peter about his school project, where I'll be hosting a show. It was cool :) I'm exited to see how that goes? ;) Kento picked me up, went to target then to eat at wing stop mmm ;) Hanging out with stef later maybe watching a movie :) we'll see how the rest of today goes. I still miss my chango Myk :( <3 nat <3 nat
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I'm bad at this

[May. 23rd, 2011|06:26 pm]

[	mood	\|	grateful	]
[	music	\|	If you wanna be my lover - Spice Girls	]

I truly want to write in this damn thing more but fuck I'm so damn lazy...
I know it shouldn't take much it's just my thoughts but trust my thoughts are .... hmmm complicated hahaha for lack of a better word.
Okay quick over view of what's been happening since Februray!

March
- Still in School finishing my NMT Program
- Still working @ Dr. Stacey office... Slowly building my clientel
- Still Teaching @ KB Fitness
- Still employed @ Guess but NEVER get scheduled lol ( whatever I still get my discount! yeah buddy!)
- Taped my "addicted" choreography for Crystal's Film Class <---crazy scary!!! but cool (it came out awesome!)
- Kento is still trying to "win me back" I guess He Says "I know what I want now"....blah blah blah NOT TRUE!!! not gonna happen either I waited long enough won't make that same mistake again!!! To many chances
- Not really dancing with SP anymore for many different reasons (Mappy Jenny Margela love triangle awkwardness mainly) <-- that and I wasn't really motivated or pushed anymore... basically it was getting BOOOOORRRINNNNNNGGGG! lol I'm such a jerk! teehehe
- Competed w/ Silhouette @ Collaboration Great/bad day ( Jenny Margela Cam <--Drama..... booooo them)
- Still talk to Myk <3 like almost everyday! :)

April
- 4th -11th In El Paso
- Hung out w/ Myk ALOT!!! <3
- Hung out w/ Raylene & Myk :)
- Went to Ruiodoso for Ashley's Bachlorette Party
- - Got food poisoning. Drunken crazy night (Vegas Style) @ Quaters Horseback riding. <---- Craziness (I was a good girl but I can't say the same for the rest of the girls lol) tsk tsk!
-GRADUATED w/ a 4.0 Average!!! WOOT 4/19
- 4/20 <---Amazingly stonned lots of weed and smoking (started off sad and slow but my friends came through) :)
- Silhouette Get-a-way

May
- Time spent w/ Crystal & Orlie :)
- MMM Koren BBQ Finally
- I survived Claws :) I peeled and ate Shrimp WOOT WOOT
- Charmed Cupcakes : ) <--- such a fatty!
- Got pulled over in AZ and got caught by BP. God's gift & Comet R.I.P.
- Stayed w/ Myk when I first arrived in EPT <3 :)
- Surprised my Mom & Gma for Mother's Day
- DRAMA w/ the Brenda & Ash after our 2nd Bachlorette Party in EP.
- Myk <3
- Myk <3
- Myk <3 .... and I still can't get enough ... sigh...
- Ashley & Chris' Wedding :) 5/14 Myk was my DATE ;) <3
- Sasha Fish LMAO!!!!
- Got in a huge fight w/ My mom
- Myk's Mom loves me ( she gave me a CD before leaving & cried as I left )
- more Myk <3
- I told him I loved him on several different occasions
- Got in our first heated discussion
- -I asked what we were doing & asked him to try to have a long distance relationship.... no go.... he got real upset...I cried... he teared up... he yelled "your thousands of miles away" a lot...I tried. He made me feel crazy and stupid for thinking that it could work. He basically doesn't want to have a gf that isn't there. I understand. Damn it I love him
- Everything's just gonna stay as it was before w/ Myk <3 He's there and I'm here. It is what it is.

Present
- Just got back from Texas
- I miss Myk .... <3 We're still good :) for now...
- Glad to be home
- Broke as a joke
- Time to hustle
- I need to hit the gym bad ( I did a lot of eating of good food! LOL )
- Time to dance

That's all I got for now.... I hope I didn't forget anything important.
Oh yeah I love Myk!!! <3 =)

<3 nat

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